Alright....I've been sucked back in....It's all Mallories' fault. She pulled me in...This Xanga is like a cult!

Anyways...yeah..GO SENIORS...the other classes suck (Juniors not so bad)

I'm reading this really good book called Self Matters by Dr. Phil. You might think it sounds really hokie and hippie but to tell you the truth If it were I wouldn't be reading it....Ask any person in my family or english class....I don't read books unless it's totally neccesary...The book is pritty much a guide to a "better" life. It mostly deals with finding your inner "true/authentic" self. This is the feelings inside you that are good and natural. Fake or "fictional" feeling are those that really abide to your morals, inner concepts, etc. The book first tries to uncover what/who you authentic really is. This is found by exercises and strategies to use to look for you "real" self. The rest of the book (I think) deals with transforming you fictional self into you true, authentic self. It's a really get book...i've only finished about half of it...but from what I've found it is very helpful....Trust me, if it can help a depressed kid like me, IT CAN HELP YOU.

I'm at a point right now of not knowing what to do. This thing happened which is going to inevitably effect my friendship with a person. Is it better to not talk with the disagreeing person or be friends again? Yeah, thats what I thought. The best medicine is talking. Many psychologist conditions can be assisted with the help of talking/counciling. I know for a fact that I wouldn't be were I am now without it. So why is it so ....what's the word?...hard....odd....uneasy to just call up somebody and say "Hey this is how I'm feeling, is it true to you too, how can we both change this feeling between us?" You'll be surprised, I think, of the kinds of people that have actually opened up in these situations and have showed sides of themselves that I never knew existed.

Anyways,....I've done too much Zanga for one day...

"If you'd LIKE to win, but THINK you can't, it's almost a cinch; you won't" -The Winner's Creed

Hey everybody....I don't know if anybody reads me anymore...I know I don't read me anymore! haha...bad joke....anyways...Here's a letter that I sent to one of my VA friends which pritty much describes my life right now....(I didn't feel like writing it all over again

Hey! GOOD NEWS! (I guess Nicole talked to you awhile ago) I"M COMING HOME!!! July 19th! I'm gunna be in VA for 2 days (until the 21st) and THEN my uncle up in Maine asked me if I'd like to Assistant Direct Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat and then BE IN Jesus Christ Superstar. He's the preforming arts teacher at the local high school. The same high school that my dad and his brothers went to. So YEAH~! I'll be up in Maine for a month and a half. Then I'm coming BACK down to VA for another two days. (August 2?3?-5th)..SO YEAH! I'm really looking forward to seeing all you guys and also my HOME TOWN....I can't wait....I'm staying at Nicoles house while I'm there...(yes I just said that I'm staying at Nicole's house) haha....How's everything going? Drama? Internship? School? You guys ready to get out of school? Kindof a ritorical question. I just finished being in a one act play called "The Actor." It was recently published in a monthly drama magazine. It was about a guy (me) who had a calling to be an actor but his parents don't want him to. It was a lot of fun. It was student directed so it was a great experience. This weekend we had an improv group from Cal State Poly called "Smile and Nod" come and play some games with us.  Then that night we preformed for family and friends. They don't have a comedy sports/improv group here! I'm thinking of starting one for next year. We're planning a big trip next year for drama. I'm secretary for Thespian Society so I've lots to get ready for next year. Our "Drama Club" needs to attract more members cuz right now its really boring and small. So hopefully I can help it. OHH Also next year our choir is going to NYC! I'm not sure if I'm going cuz it's going to be around $1,300+....and I don't have a job to pay ...so yeah...that's my life in a nut shell ...(I"M IN A NUT SHELL LET ME OUT AHH) haha...Hope all is going great out there! Can't wait to see all of you guys! Sorry this letter was so long! I'll talk to you later!                                                         Stephen